We all have things that have happened to us in our past. Some even traumatic or in my case what others would deem traumatic. Tonight, after two wonderful days of being level headed and calm, I lost my cool. Then from there it went to fretting and bawling over something from the past that normally wouldn't bother me.

Is this me trying to fit something to my mood or is it something that is really bothersome? (A rape and an attempted rape and supposed loved ones not being there for me in the way I wanted). I honestly feel like it doesn't bug me 99% of the time.