I am so freaking tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of thinking about therapy, what my T. can and can't give me, missing her, time in between sessions, feeling like I could burst into tears at any moment.

I can't email or text her unless it's about appointments. I've told her multiple times I want to quit. If I quit, then I won't have to deal with feelings and won't be in pain.

But, I feel trapped. If I quit, then the pain of missing her will be just as great. I really hate this. I almost feel like I'm tourturing myself. Why put myself through this when I can stop it?

Today sucks.