Hi Rayne, I'm sorry things are so hard for you
It is really good that as you say you've been asking for help, and don't stop doing that.........just maybe there could be different people to ask for help from too?? E.g. different family members, doctor, helplines...........
And the trying new things........kudos to you on that, but sometimes with depression that can get so hard/overwhelming can't it..........so, I don't know, do you think you might be pushing yourself too hard, right now??? Or maybe try some different lower key things???
So just some thoughts..........
And last question (!!) , with this: "There's just so much going wrong............." do you want to tell us a bit more about about those things, maybe we can help with a bit of advise/support.........???
Because this: "I don't have anyone anymore" doesn't need to be true, we're here for you
Alison