Hi Aheta
I was where you are a long time ago. I guess the lesson I finally learned is to be ready to tell all my secrets. I am special, interesting, strong because of the good things and hard things in my life. I wrote a book about my life, tried to make it interesting and funny and then read it to fellow writers. I also learned that there is a whole world of people who are offering affection and hugs - you just have to ask. I send you a hug for as long as you want one.