Everything is crashing in on me. I feel so hopeless. I'm not in crisis right now, I know that's not what these forums are for. There's just so much going wrong and I feel so scared and paralyzed and just...dark. Really, really dark, worse than I've felt in a long time. I don't have anyone anymore. I just don't know what to do and I feel like I've been pushing and pushing and asking for help and trying new things and I always keep going and now I just don't know what the point is. I have no energy. I feel completely broken.