I'm really proud of you for staying in the hug when it makes you so uncomfortable! It's really important to not reject a child's affection. And yeah, it'll get easier. Maybe you'll never get any enjoyment from it, but at least you'll know that she's getting the physical affection from you too. The fact that she still tries to initiate it with you shows that it's something that you can repair. It helps that you put a lot of time into going to her things.
And you're totally right that there's no harm in being persistent about contacting different therapists 
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