im an atheist . i dont spend time thinking about higher powers etc. there was a point in my psychosis when i was a teenager that i thought i was possessed by my grandfather who killed himself. i thought he was haunting me and his voice was the voice i heard that kept telling me to kill myself. i believed that for a while. like even into 2010. i remember telling T about it. but anyway these days ... i dont think much about it. about god or whatever or the afterlife. to me its pointless for me to think about.