Day one IP has passed. They have me on high doses of Valium to deal with withdrawals and it seems to be helping but I still feel irritable. My mood is swinging from upbeat to suicidal s it is a bit of a rollercoaster. Group starts soon so that should keep me distracted at least, and I might learn something too even though I have done them before. Really missing drinking and smoking but trying to stay strong. Still waiting to see my pdoc to discuss the treatment plan and impliment it. Should see him today sometime (is is 8.30am here). So thankful for all the support from everyone on this site. It really helped me see I needed to stop the self-medicating and focus on treatment.