I have been through the same battle. I have tried 14 different meds. I found lithium works the best. i also struggled to find the fight doctors and now have an excellent psychiatrist and therapist. Since meds are not working, and I had to do a 10-day stay in the psych ward, I am considering ECT. I guess to be short and sweet, this diagnosis sucks and is a long battle. Hang in there, it isn't always horrible.