It isn't really possible to separate yourself from your symptoms. You can only learn how to handle your illness and the meds that go with it. It often takes quite some time and a lot of different drugs before you find the combination that makes you feel like a human. Please try to handle only one thing at a time. If you expect too much from yourself all at once you are setting yourself up for failure. Start with university and when you master that then find a good man and so on. Good Luck to you.