I'm 48 and I've been chronically depressed since I was a teenager. I was walking yesterday to try to improve my mood, but it just made it worse by giving me time to think. I can't think of any possible way to make myself a person I can like or make my life something I care about. My mother and brother depend on me continuing with my life as it is, and I draw a blank when thinking of alternatives.

So it seems that I need to find a way of accepting myself and my life instead of changing it. I don't know much about Buddhism, but I think part of it is about accepting things.

Any thoughts?