Okay so I'm back from Chicago and have another appointment next week! OH BOY! It was really relaxed at the clinic, and the doctor basically was like

"Well do you have a history of depression or anxiety" and I was honest and told him how I struggled through school with it, but have recovered and coped better since graduating. "Any history of illness in your family?" My mom has multiple schlorosis and my dad is diabetic. "Do you smoke, drink, or do any drugs" Nope. "And how much do you know about masculinizing hormone therapy?" A LOOOOT. LIKE HALF MY TIME IN SCHOOL WAS RESEARCHING THAT. "All right, well I'll get you the consent forms and we'll do some labs. I'll see you back here in a week, we'll review the forms and look at your labs. And we should be able to go over the medication then."

It was so easy and felt like any other doctor's visit. I was really happy, and felt so normal and natural there. It was so new to me. It was almost like a dream! So I go back in a week to see the doctor again and that's all!