No, it didn't upset me but I'm trying really hard not to be mad at her and push her away. That's how I cope. If I find one little thing wrong with her, I go for it and push her away because then I won't care about her or therapy. She has told me she won't abandon me or let me push her away which has helped.

This is definitely something I need to talk to her about. I'm going to ask her if I get in this place again can I text her something like "having one of those moments and feeling like I want to quit. This is too hard." and maybe she can give me an encouraging response that won't cause us to text for days.

I bet once I ask for it, I won't need it. Perhaps it will be enough to know it's possible (and maybe after testing it once). I don't feel this way all the time. This is maybe the second time in 6 weeks. I know she doesn't want to encourage/start dependency and she knows I can do this on my own. I just can't afford to be THAT upset after sessions where it's affecting my work. I either need the support or she needs to help me know what to tell myself when I get in those moments.

As much as it hurts, it's better than it was last summer. I felt that way every day but never felt I could ask for help - didn't want to appear too needy, etc.