Lately I feel like I am struggling to keep my head above water. Today's been fine so far, despite depression. But some bad things happened last night and it's taken a lot of my energy, stolen my sleep, and I still haven't recovered. It seems that whenever I just begin to recover from a fight, another fight has to happen, so I have to recover from that fight and so on. Always recovering. Daily routine. It's getting old and I am getting fed up. Now Mom & I are talking about the possibility of moving out in March, if things do not get better. She gets another big check then, so we could afford it. I am hoping we move out, but at the same time I'm hoping things get better so we won't have to.