Update: my mother's toxicology came back. Now we wait until Sunday for the Dr to review it and determine cause of death. That will give us some closure, I guess... My friends and everyone else have all gone on with their lives and I'm still here, sedated to the point of sleeping all day... It's easier than facing a world without my mother, though. I don't know how she was so strong all the time. No matter what, she always went to work... Granted, we have very different jobs... She worked in a warehouse, I'm a cna. I just don't feel like I'm ok to go back to taking care of others right now. I'm doing a lot of it at home already. Idk what else to say... It's hard to go on when you don't want to. I just want my mom back... Or to go with her