Thank you sideblinded for the reply.

Oh I love that man, it's what made me stick it out for 8 years.

I'm sorry to read that you are in a place you don't like and without support of family.

I to try to be grateful for the small things and it does help. Maybe it's the lack of social connections that makes me feel like I don't belong here? If so that sucks for me because, dealing with people in real like, blah.