You need to be honest with your T so make sure you get the care you need.

I have shared that I do not wish to be here.... I think that sometimes that is normal.

I read in a magazine right before I started therapy ... Never lie to your shrink. I would share that with you. Not sharing would be lying. I know it can be difficult but ... I feel you need to tell so that you can talk it through. If you talk it though, the need to hurt yourself may deminish.