I can't help myself around food. I could be stuffed but if I know I have food somewhere I will eat it. It's worse when I'm upset because I will eat and eat and eat and be crying while doing it but I need it. I need it to feel whole again. There have been times when I'm so desperate for food that I cry. I'm already depressed, I don't want to feel worse over food.

I try not to complain because I eat non-stop and am really thin, but I hate having people tell me "oh you're so lucky! you can eat as much as you want and you won't gain weight" or "omg where do you put all of THAT?" I hate the thin-shaming that happens to me when they don't realize it only makes it worse and I'll just eat MORE. They don't see that I don't eat because I can, I eat because I can't stop myself.