I was too freakin' depressed to get out of bed yesterday, so I didn't get to my pharmacy before it closed, which means I ran out of blood thinner. Which is rather more problematic than running out of psych meds. Couple days missing those might make you uncomfortable; couple days missing thinners might kill you. My pharmacy is always closed on Sundays and now closed tomorrow too because of the holiday.

I have a ton of refills and went to a different pharmacy to try to get one. They refused because they couldn't talk to my original pharmacy to get the script transferred, and told me to go to the ER.

I haven't been in a hospital in not quite a year and a half -- since I went in and very nearly did not come back out. I proceeded to have an enormous frickin' panic attack and then I just barely made it outside to go home before I had to ralph in the grass, my stomach was so upset.

I have had a million billion dr. visits in the last year and a half, but those I can handle, because I walk in and know I'm walking back out on my own two feet and have the freedom to go home. If I never see another hospital, it will be too soon, but given my health issues, I'm sure this is going to come up again. How the heck do I get around it?

Worse, I have to pay for a full ER visit for 4 stupid pills!!! And it's my own damn fault, worse even yet.

GROWL