i'm afraid of my anger too. trouble is that if you supress / dissociate / deny it... then that makes it more likely to simmer away beneath the surface and then explode. or it makes it more likely that we miss out on some of the other good emotions that we could be experiencing ('cause it is hard to selectively numb emotions). sometimes can result in depression and self hatred and the like.

feeling it just a little can be somewhat liberating. to feel it a little and to see that it is okay. sometimes the hardest thing is the secondary emotions. feel a little anger and then feel intense shame or self hatred or whatever.