Hi tranquility

I wonder if at times what we do, in order to deal is to put certain feelings away. We keep ourselves busy with what needs to be done and we forget we've stashed them somewhere. All of a sudden, something triggers our memory of where we stashed that feeling and it just floods out of the gates without warning. It's as if it has come to the time of dealing. For whatever reason, that feeling is screaming to be heard and dealt with in order for us to learn and move on.

I'm sorry you are in such physical pain. I applaud you for working so hard in recovery. Try not to be so hard on yourself for what happened. I think everyone has moments when we break down and have to deal with a fact of or lives that is not pleasant. Maybe if you can consider it a time for learning and growing within, you can be more at peace.

I send you thoughts of strength and peace to help you evaluate and overcome the issues you are faced with.

Hugsssssss
J