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Old Jan 28, 2015, 07:11 PM
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Originally Posted by lolagrace View Post
You have double messages in here:

"Do not contact me again."

AND

"If you need any more information from me, or a fee, do let me know as soon as possible."


Honestly. I know you think you need to say all of the above to her, but it is going to fall on deaf ears AND I wouldn't trust her for a minute to not reply in order to justify herself to you, particularly since you have been ambiguous about contact in this email draft.

Write it out and burn it or something, but telling her these things isn't going to change her. It isn't going to really do anything for you; that is fodder for future therapy with a much more professional therapist. And you are continuing to engage in a conversation with her this way.
Sorry, it's not clear what I've said - where I have 'PA' here I have the PA's name. The second part of the email is for her.

I really want to say these things, or at least some of them. I want to go out with a bang. She won't reply because she is too cowardly, and there is no going back if I send this. None.

It's like flicking a lit match as I close the door. There is no danger of wringing my hands and wanting to go back, and her going maybe and then me jumping through umpteen hoops to get back in that ****ing room...Even if I cave and beg to go back, she will never, ever let me, will not entertain the idea, if I send this to her. It guarantees me getting away.
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