(((Xander187)),

You need to reach out for help, find a VA hospital as they "do" have good programs. DO NOT comit suiside. I am sorry you are having that challenge, but know this challenge will go away, I promise it does. It tends to have cycles like the other PTSD challenges, can come on strong but ALWAYS fades too. After a while that will weaken, especially if you reach out for help.

If you are struggling you need to go to the VA and say how bad you are, and you may get to be inpatient and they have to find a place for you.