Today, I feel lonely. Kind of a common thing for me. But I'm also a bit angry, because I really believe I am lonely because of how long I have isolated. I isolate because that has felt safer, ever since the abuse. It's their fault I ended up here. I didn't ask for this. I feel like my natural self would be more open to people and relationships. They changed who I was with their abuse. So now I'm sad and lonely.

I know I have a choice now to move out of this shell and live a fuller life. But I'd be lying if said it was easy. It's not.

Thanks for listening,

mtd