KEEP YOUR HEAD UP...mania is not your fault...so though you may feel shame..etc, etc...it is social expectations that may need to be changed...that is why it is so important that those with mental conditions (I hate the word illness) advocate for change and understanding for ourselves and others.

No shame Zen888....the brain is a funky piece of equipment. Bi Polar is like driving an old truck with a couple of spark plugs not gapped properly.

You Take Care...Mojo3