I try genuinely hard to get along with my mother but its really hard to sit still and ignore the words that come out of her mouth when they hurt as badly as they do....saying that i have no money and that she basically bitter about the fact that she is basically paying for everything and I can understand that...but saying to me that I will never pay for anything myself or that I willl never pay her back is thoroughly annoying...its one of the main reason I truly just need to get out of this house and her personality.
I mean love her...but her narcissism is not a good thing for my mental health, I mean starting a new job and hearing these kinds of things is not encouraging for me to do better or try...when you feel like others just think your not going to improve at all sometimes.
in honesty I do not think she intends to be mean...some how I think she does this to get under my skin and irritate me in hopes that I will be pushed into fixing the issues.
well I guess she succeeded in that cause now I really want to prove her wrong and pay my student loans as much as I can with my money. And pay her back what she has paid for my past schooling and my current payments.