Trying to look far into the future can drive a sane person crazy. Drinking and selectively taking my mes sent me into a mixed episode so intense I attempted suicide. My guilt at my drinking pushed me over the edge. I spent 4 days in ICU and then a lovely few days IP. Be honest with your T. It's their job to support you and help you figure out solutions. I haven't had a drink in over a year and a half and am the more stable than I ever have been. Your situation is a little more complicated since you reside with someone that uses. Its easy to chose the 'wrong' option when you are already in a vulnerable place. If IP is something you are willing to do, maybe that will help. You are worth the effort!