I think it's a bit different from your past experience from mine, but i don't know. I just don't know how to tell him and START TO TELL HIM WITH GOOD WORDS what i feel for him and all this erotic transference and romantically. I'm really scared and my boyfriend just tell me ''oh c'mon go on, this is ****ing normal'' but... it's like a confession, right? it's a confession and i'm terrible at confessions, especially with romantical confessions. I cannot tell him ''Ok, i don't love you, well, i feel like i'm love with you and maybe i am, but i don't know, this is really confusing. Oh, and did i tell you about it? i masturbate to you since 2012 and i fantasize A LOT about you and me with sexual encounters and sometimes romantical encounters, but especially erotic. I know you feel disgusted about that, but whay can i do? i think you're attractive and a nice guy and idk, i just fall in love with you, ok? sorry about the mess, doctor''

it's really difficult to me. really. i just want help. AND I WILL HAVE MY NEXT SESSION NEXT WEEK AND I JUST WANT TO TELL HIM ABOUT MY FEELINGS!
but i don't know how i can start talking about my transference.