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Originally Posted by LiLiStar4
This is a fact I struggle with every day. I do not understand anxiety disorder, even though I have had it for half of my life.
Why do I perceive certain things as a "threat" when I KNOW there's no logical explanation? Why did this disorder just come on me all of a sudden one month before my 16th birthday?
I'm STILL trying to figure out the answer to these questions over a decade later, and it's as annoying to me now as it was then.
My hope is that, one day, I'll be "normal" again, will FEEL normal again. It'd be nice to be able to get out in the world and just live like a regular person, no anxiety. I honestly feel that anxiety is cruel, it robs you of your joy, your peace, your normality, your LIFE. I have to actively plan AROUND my anxiety disorder. Even with medication, I have to do this.
I'm guessing many of us do. Hopefully, one day, we'll all get this anxiety thing figured out. Until then, we will all just meet here and do our best to make sense of it. lol
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My anxiety disorder happened out of the blue too, right when I turned 14. I think it might have something to do with hormones. I also feel like it robbed me of my joy and my life. It kept me locked up in my room unable to face normal day to day activities that other people my age should have enjoyed like going to school or forming friendships.
I still struggle with not feeling "normal" at age 22. It's been a long battle. Every medication I've taken hasn't helped that I've noticed...and I also feel like I have to "plan around my anxiety". Other people who don't have anxiety, don't understand it. Even dating is hard with an anxiety disorder, especially when the guy you're dating is outgoing and uninhibited. I struggle in work environments too, and even college classes provoke anxiety for me...anxiety is cruel.