Thanks guys.

I first talked to an OB GYN about it a year ago. His response was less than ideal. A little dismissive, a little judgmental ("Women have been having babies for thousands of years"). He did say that I could have a c-section if I wanted, which I think I would basically have to do since most of my fear is about labor.

I also went for therapy for several months. I can't say it helped. Now I'm just stuck. We have thought about adoption, and that may be the road we take. It's hard, though, and expensive.