Looking back I've had opportunities but didn't take them because in those situations I had just met the guys and, not to be cliche, but I would like it to be with someone special.

I tried having a relationship in my twenties with one guy and it didn't work out. He had mental health issues, too, though, so at the time I chalked it up to that. Some years later, after a mutual friend informed me of some of the things he's into, I realized that I hadn't taken charge physically and that was probably what he wanted. So we never got past kissing. It was confusing.

Now I'm convinced that I'm giving off the vibe that I'm not interested in anyone. That's not the case. But I don't know how to fix it — another issue for therapy, of course.
There are also my mental health obstacles: I rarely leave the house these days, making it difficult to meet new people, among other things.

The Internet seems like my best option but I have trouble making friends, let alone possible partners. It's frustrating because I would very much like to have someone to share life with. I just don't know how to do it.