well........i did something potentially stupid.....at least it feels like I am now vulnerable and I have let my guard down too much.......

....i called and left a message on my therapist's office voicemail.

i bascially told her: I am very very emotionally confused right now and I feel like I'm making myself vulnerable by calling at all and this feels very risky......but I miss you.

and i told her there is no real need for her to call me back, I just wanted her to know...and said again how risky it feels to call her and tell her this.

am I an idiot or what? why do i make myself vulnerable like this?