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I hear your pain and anguish. I think addiction to any substance is something that we ourselves are going to need help with. I am not sure that you can cure this on your own even though you are very aware that you are in trouble. I think the best route would be rehab. That is not a sentence of any kind, it is getting help and there is no shame in getting help. In fact I see this as a positive step that those around you would support and also give you and them some hope that your life has meaning and purpose. btw....welcome to PC and I hope that you seek help. Best wishes and keep your head up.