hi all i'm in quite a good positive phase at the mo,my creative urges are coming back, i'm thinking in picking up sculpture again i so long want to escape from this illness with its limitations, my fear is of getting ill again if the changes i make take me out of my wellness and start a whole depressive cycle again. some people say listen to your inner self make changes informed and with support,i feel my thinking is so geared to the worst will happen , i can't differentiate between doing a change that is good for me or whether i am setting myself up for failure considering the recurrent nature of the illness ,i guess that i'm saying a change and a new lifestyle will stop me having this illness and the only way, is to find something i want to do and then do it , why is life so twisted or is it me?!!