I know exactly what your talkin about. My family gets so upset with me because they say I don't try to get better. I have in the past, but it never works. It always seems like i'm setting my self up for the inevitable fall anyway. So from here I cant fall too far, you know what I mean?
But I've been down here so long i forget what happiness looks like, how the sun feels. But i'm comming to a place where a choice has to be made. I cant live like this anymore. the truth is i haven't really been living for a long time.
So change doesn't make itself, and healing doesn't happen over night.
So anyway I just wanted to say that I can relate to the fear of the inevitable fall, but maybe its time to change the way we think......
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