I've become awfully depressed. Since October, I've been having downturn after downturn. I would rather be dead than feel like this. I don't have any suicidal plans. I am just trying to explain how awful this is.

There is no one I know who has any idea how bad my problem with depression is. It's a waste of time telling anyone because they do not understand. Here at PC, I figure people will understand who go through this themselves.

I've been having anxiety, but I can't boil it down to anything specific that I can address.

I tell myself that I've had this problem with getting severely depressed most of my life . . . and I've gotten through bad episodes before . . . and they don't last forever. They are self-limiting, it seems. But, since October, they keep coming back and it is more and more severe.