It hurts so bad I can't breathe and I know it's never going away... I keep reliving that day. I've never been closer to anyone than I was too her and I don't think I ever can be that close to anyone ever... I don't think that kind of closeness is possible with just anyone. She was my best friend... We used to joke that we were like a married couple. I don't know how to go on without her, but I know I don't want to. I can't think of anything to look forward to that won't feel empty in her absence... I feel like I'm dying inside.