hey echoes.

i know... i used to go to church too. and i felt warmth and companionship there. my homegroup leader got a little too attached to me shortly after his wife had a baby. nothing happened physically (well, he kissed me and i cried 'cause i was so confused) but it really messed me up emotionally. that was around when j. started screaming. they asked me to leave the church. it turned all horrible.

so its hard him having a baby. not just 'cause of kt... but 'cause of that too. stupid google. i shouldn't have looked again. but i kind of wanted to try and find out how old he was. found a church newsletter instead. i'll be okay. i just wish i hadn't found it, i guess.