(((( holding on to you! ))))

I was on anti-depressants for over 10 years. I tried this and that and settled on Prozac. I think I just got tired of trying and trying this and that and combos and dealing with the side effects...

One day as I was feeling very depressed... again!... I wondered about the meds. I had been feeling so numb and felt like a good cry might ease the tension of the depression but realized I didn't cry anymore; for any reason, even appropriately! How scary! Anyway, I wondered: If I was still having depression and taking a med, then why not just have the depression and not take the med? What would happen? I'd been on meds for so long... what was I like now? I wanted to know so I went off

I have been off now by choice (many have disagreed and told me to go back on!--it makes THEM feel better! lol). I had someone wonderful to talk to online who convinced me to try therapy again.. had had it all those years too. Only I am trying a different kind of therapy--analytical instead of behavioral. I think this is the answer for me because my mood seems to depend on my perceptions; my mood is a reaction to what is going on currently and immediately and can plunge like taking a step off a ledge!

Anyway, long rant when I meant to support!! sorry

I hope you are feeling much better. It sounds like going through a box of your own things that you don't recognize would be very upsetting! It doesn't sound like a 'little annoyance', it sounds very difficult.