MM I'm sorry that the hospital wasn't as helpful as we all hoped. I was let out of hospital the other week actively intending sui, which they knew about (told me they 'hoped' I wouldn't do it, but I was free to leave!), so I understand that it can be hard to find good professionals that care. I also don't believe that you "love drama": I think your situation is very complex for multiple reasons that can be hard for professionals, let alone people on the Internet who don't know you IRL, to understand. I hope T is back next week and that you can wait it out until you see pdoc. Just focus minute by minute if that's what it takes to get through til then.

All the best

*Willow*