Wow, what a time I've been having as of late.

Its almost like a dream. To those who don't know my therapist is leaving in July, and their is NO WAY I can see him where he is going, its to far away! Not only has my family deserted me, but also my therapist, I mean he says he;s leaving for a "offer he can't refuse" I want to laugh and cry, its so mixed for me......he said "you gotta grab the bull by the horns" after I told him I was suicidal.....then I thought "how can I, your leaving everything I've worked for is leaving"......, my confidents, you, my friends,family.

My friends ignore I have a problem, despite the fact its natural for them to do that, its hard! My family never asks how I'm doing even recently I told them to ask, to care, to support.....

So who do I work for? Me..thats who! I am tired of caring about all thats in this world, when I'm not cared about by those I need to care for me! I'm not gonna play around anymore.....I'm gonna crawl in this hole I've created and dig my way out.....no matter how long it takes........