Oh gosh MM. Just saw the updates and new replies since I last posted in the thread during my daily (nightly) PC visit.

It happens to be nearly 2:30AM and I promised the other half that I'd be in bed by 1AM (oops) so I'll make it quick. Unfortunately sometimes IP admissions don't help, or you're discharged before it has a chance to, but I believe this whole experience and some admittedly "tough love" from your PC friends has begun to shake your mind back into sense and push you into a healthier path of recovery. Yeah you may not feel instantly better and we may be back in a similar situation again in the future but that is the nature of Bipolar Disorder and that honestly isn't your fault.

What you need to focus on doing, whilst you have the clear mind to do so, is create a contingency plan for future relapses. Your husband needs to be able to help you and you must give him the tools to be able to do so. This includes things like having him take control of your meds by keeping them secure and ensuring that you take them, having a list of phone numbers to call if he believes you are a danger to yourself or others, etc. You also need to have a list of things to prioritise and a list of strategies that have helped you cope in the past.

For now, focus on getting to some form of stability and then plan for the future and what could happen further along the line.

And remember, we are all here for you too.

Michael