Unfortunately, the hospital is not really an option, as I am in school right now, and my mom is 100% against me going back. I have told her about the hallucinations, too. I want to stop taking the AD as it is controlling my mind, but I am scared that if I do, the person/people watching me will send me back to the hospital. Plus, what if I end up even more screwed afterwards... can't it mess up your brain if you stop AD meds suddenly or something? I remember them warning me about that and the booklet said that you should gradually come off it. My mom is going to go back to the office tomorrow and talk to them about it, but I don't know what they will do.