Still dealing with this, huh? You shouldn't be taking the antidepressant without a mood stabilizer if you are, in fact, experiencing mania. Hopefully your doctor will recognize that and will change your instructions tomorrow when the office talks with your mom. You are right though; it is very risky to stop the med on your own. I'm not sure if you are in high school or college but either way, I remember what it is like to be manic at school. I remember having bizarre outbursts that I was so embarrassed about later. I remember destroying friendships. I feel for you. I hope you can reach stability soon!