I'm with always. I was on an ad for 2 years and was a nut job the whole time. Then went off and was semi ok (albeit the daily drinking to calm me down or lift me up haha). After a few fine years a trauma happened and it sent me pretty crazy so I sort of had to accept there is something going on up there.

I would get a few professional opinions if you don't agree with your diagnoses. Then I would work on accepting your diagnoses. One thing I found out from these forums is you won't 100% identify with everyone here so the answers won't always be there. My point is your answers about diagnoses won't be found here.