Oh Lonely Guy!!

I hope you are seeing a therapist for this. Being bullied everyday is so damaging. No wonder you have PSTD-like symptoms!!

Growing up, for me, was emotionally awful. Getting therapy in my late teens saved my life. All I can say is that I had better results with therapy than with medications. But there isn't any reason you can't do both.

There is no shame in asking for help. I hope your parents get you the help you need.