For weeks I have just been feeling so down. I've been thinking. A lot. Lots of stuff going through my head. Endless amounts of stuff.
I've also had a difficult time at work since returning from holidays. It's been frustrating at the best of times.
I just want to talk to someone. About everything.
I had a rough patch a few years ago. I had absolutely no support from anyone ever. As much as it is in the past, it is what has shaped my life today.
But it bothers me. It is like it's eating away at me. Just getting ready for my head to explode.
There's only so much one person can hold in right?
Well I've held my whole life in. Everything. I have no comfort talking to anyone.! I've always been reserved and shy. Don't get me wrong, I've got some great friends. But they're all useless to talk to.
Even my boyfriend, he just doesn't get that behind the smile, I'm not so happy.
I Donno.

I want to talk to someone, I want someone to just push and push me till I talk, I tell them everything. I just want someone to notice and to not let me just brush everything off as yeah I'm perfectly fine.

Argh. I can't just talk on the net. I cannot connect with someone like that.