On Friday I was attacked by a family member and had to call the police.

I moved back home after grad school to help out and it's been hell on earth.

First one sibling attacked me then another started. I feel like my therapy has been undone. My therapist warned me only to stay long enough to get on my feet but the job I took doesn't pay well enough for me to leave. I've been applying for other jobs and now I am working even harder to get out of this living situation.

My aunt and her husband have offered to let me stay with them in my home state but I don't want to be a guest in anyone else's home. I need my own place again to control my anxiety.

My former therapist turned alleged friend is always unavailable when things like this happen and hasn't once offered me shelter with her.

My soon to he ex fiance isn't helping because he wants me to address our relationship problems before he helps.

I'm tired. I earned an undergraduate degree and a graduate degree,I have worked at top companies in my field, I've never abused drugs or alcohol and I'm not abusive but I've been abused and witnessed abuse all my life. My fiance has a terrible temper and all my immediate family members except my dad have physically abused me.

I have always tried to do the right thing and I'm paying for it. None of my abusers have. I just want to give up and for the pain to end...my panic and anxiety are in high gear now, I'm not sleeping and I'll have to leave my job and start over yet again.

I'm tired of it all...