*Sigh* I just spent £300 that I couldn't really afford on stuff from ASOS and Rains.

As soon as I'd made the order I felt an instantly guilty and anxious. I know for a fact that I am trying to fill an emptiness that I fill with **** off the net, food- I eat heathy then binge, I just to smoke weed and drink, but not anymore.

I go to therapy for my depression and take Lyrica for my anxiety, but they just don't seem to fill that hole. I am filled with a constant longing but I don't really know what I'm longing for.