{{{{Erin}}}}}}}}

Yes, I will go because he is insisting on it. I will listen and watch the others - hear how they deal with things, etc.

SI does indeed scare me. I can't believe the things that I do to myself. My right arm is all burned now from cigs. I just take them and singe my skin. I get so focused on it that I just keep going. One section is really bad and my T will see it Wed......if he asks, I have to tell him the truth. I've never lied to him in 3 years, I simply can't.

I am furious with him, not just angry. It makes me want to snap at him and demand an apology for hurting me the way that he has - but I can't. Before I would have, but now there is a barrier so I just keep my mouth shut.

Thanks for everything, Erin. You take care as well.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard